Everything always comes down to money!!!

 I hate money!!!  So, I talked to the business office/insurance person at PPVI last week....it was kind of a shocker/reality check. I guess I had in my mind that my insurance would cover a good portion of things, but I don't know for sure. She was super helpful and said they will do everything they can. But, because I've already done treatment for infertility (IUI, clomid, Follistim injectables, etc), she said it is gonna be hard to convince them that I want to fix my body, not just get pregnant. I think I have a case....I had asked my previous OB to do a lap on me cause I think I have endo but not tons of symptoms. I do get some intense abdominal cramping at random times a few times every month....The cost of all of it, especially if insurance doesn't cover, is too much for us financially right now. I still need to call my insurance company to get details, but that really depresses me. Once again, $$ stands in the way of possibly having a chance at getting pregnant!  I really hate that!



DH and I went out to eat on New Year's Day and he mentioned that it was nice not to have to cart a crapload of baby gear out on a super cold day. I agreed and have definitely been thinking about that a lot lately....do I really want to have kids? Can we afford them (or even one)?? Will we be good parents??  I know I've had these thoughts before, but they seem to keep coming back, especially lately.  I wish I didn't have to even think about this....I wish I could just have sex and voila!, my period's late, maybe I'm pregnant!?  Hahaha. 
 
Well, a new year can bring new things, right?!  I pray that everyone hoping for a BFP gets one in 2010!