1 week left!

Well, I made it thru the first week of my 2ww! Today I am 7dpo. Only 7 more days til the test! The prometrium has been kicking my butt. The bottle says, "May cause drowsiness, May cause dizziness." Not a good thing when I have to take it two hours after breakfast. The second one I take an hour before I go to bed, so that's been nice...it definitely helps me sleep better! I know I should just wait until my beta on May 5th, but I don't know if I can do it. I told my mom that if i just know that I'm PG, then I'll test on Saturday or Sunday. We'll see if that happens! Other than that I've been feeling really good. I've been very good at taking my vitamins everyday, even though I hate taking pills.
My sister did have a miscarriage, confirmed by beta HCG testing. I know she's upset about it, but I think trying really hard not to show it. She says it helps that she already has her 14 month old daughter. I'm there to support her however I can though. I think they will start TTC #2 again as soon as possible. She has another beta on Wednesday to make sure the numbers have dropped even more.

She's doing okay.

I went with my sister to her appt this morning. She is still bleeding and has cramping off and on. The nurse midwife (only one that could see her today) wasn't really swayed one way or the other about what was going on. She had blood drawn for a beta HCG test. She'll have another blood draw for that on Wednesday. Depending on the numbers, she'll have an ultrasound on Thursday. Pray that everything is okay.
I definitely O'd this morning!! I've had pretty bad O pains and cramping on my right side since 9 or 10 am. They've never been this bad before! I can hardly walk and sitting at my desk is the only comfortable position (since I can't lay down on the floor!). I'm so glad we aren't in clinic today, I don't think I would have made it!! Now we wait for two weeks. Yay...

Sad news...

My twin sister is miscarrying as I type this. I feel so awful for her right now. She told me she doesn't want people telling her that "it just wasn't meant to be"!!! I told her unfortunately, that's what dumb people say when things like this happen! She called urgent care and they weren't much help, imagine that! She will call her MD's office in the morning and try to get in for a beta test. She has minor cramping, so maybe, just maybe that little emby is holding on. Please pray for her!

As for me, I'm having mild bloating and cramping on my right side since the trigger injection last night. This is gonna be a long 2ww!!

Trigger is Tonight!!

My ultrasound went well this morning. There were 3 very good sized follicles on my right ovary. The NP said all three should ovulate (not sure if that is the correct way to say that!). I have to do the trigger injection (Ovidrel) around 7pm tonight, which would make me ovulate around 7am on Monday....I also have my beta pregnancy test scheduled for May 5th...that's 16 days away! This is going to be the longest 2ww I've ever had!

The follies are growing!!

I had another internal ultrasound and bloodwork this morning. The biggest follicle was 14 mm x 13 mm on the right ovary. There were several others that were smaller, but still bigger than 10 mm. The left ovary had a few over 10 mm, but not quite as big as the right. The NP said the Clomid is doing its job! I forgot to ask what my lining was at, I will have to do that when I go back in on Saturday. My hopes are starting to lift, but not too high!

Yesterday's appt

Yesterday, Monday, I had my first follow up ultrasound since I took Clomid last week. The nurses were very pleased with my ovaries progress so far! There are several follicles around 11 x 10 mm in each ovary. They took blood as well, I believe testing my E2 (estradiol) level, and I was supposed to get the results after 3pm, but there was no message. I go back on Thursday morning for another ultrasound and b/w. Hopefully my follies have grown well! They would like them to be 20 mm or so for me to do the Ovidrel (HCG) trigger injection to induce ovulation. Other than that, nothing too exciting going on. So far I really have not had any side effects from the Clomid...Pray that it stays that way!

So far, so good.

Nothing exciting to report. I really haven't had any symptoms other than a mild headache since starting the Clomid on Monday. That may be because I've also tried to stop drinking caffeinated pop!! I really don't have that much, maybe 1-2 cans per day, but that's still too much. It's weird cause I really crave pop a lot! Don't know how to change that one! DH has been really great lately. I got him the Smurfs, season 1 on DVD for his B-Day (which is Monday the 14th), and gave it to him a week early. He absosmurfley loves it!!! :)

In other exciting (for them, not necessarily for me) news...my twin sister found out she is PG with #2....just took tests this week, so very early...but sheesh! I'm happy for them, but sad for me. She doesn't understand what I'm going thru, and I don't think she ever will. This is the one thing in our life that we can't "share" or really know what the other is feeling. It has been difficult for me. I've tried telling her that, but she doesn't get it.
My brother and his new wife found out that the baby they are expecting is a BOY!!! They also moved her due date up to August 21st from September 1st. Another exciting thing for someone else. Of course I'm happy for them, even excited for them. I'm just so sad for us.
In the back of my mind I keep thinking how exciting it would be for all three of us to be PG at the same time...but at the same time I don't like thinking about that, because what if it doesn't actually happen?! With the way stuff has gone in the past 2 1/2 years...I just don't truly see that happening.
I know I should be positive about this working, but why would it actually work now?!?

Appt today

My appointment went fine this morning. No bloodwork, just the lovely internal ultrasound! Everything looked good and I'm ready to start Clomid 50mg this evening! Nothing else really exciting going on....

Here we go!!

Tomorrow I go in for my day 3 blood work and ultrasound and will also get my Rx for Clomid. I'm a little nervous and a little excited. I don't want to get my hopes up that this could actually help us get PG. That sounds silly to the average person, but to someone who's been disappointed sooo many times (hmm, try like 33 times to be exact!) in the past, I guess I'm just thinking that way to protect myself. I pray that Clomid doesn't turn me into a monster!
I will post more after my appt tomorrow morning!!