Well, another birthday is coming up. I will turn 32 on Saturday. I wish it was something to look forward to, but really it isn't. It just means that I'm now only three years away from AMA (advanced maternal age). That scares the crap out of me! Everyone always tells me, "Oh, you're still young. You have lots of time!" That is just rude!!!
It means I've gone another year without a positive pregnancy test (well, technically I've had a bunch, but only from testing out my post-peak hcg injections) and a baby. Some days, this whole infertility thing feels like a race, a super-long, neverending race! I'm getting sick of this race. I wonder, if I wasn't infertile, what else would I have been stuck with?! It's hard not to compare myself with everyone around me. They have everything they want including a baby/kids/as many children as they want when they want them, money to do what they want with, nice big homes, nice vehicles. I'm not complaining (well, I guess I am a little!), it all just gets a little overwhelming at times. I love my husband, my dog, my job, my family...why isn't that enough??
In other news...my garden is starting to grow!! At least I know that I can grow something! I'll post pics later this week. So far I have lettuce, celery, onions, green bush beans, carrots and beets growing. I have a few pepper and cucumber plants that I need to transplant in to the garden this week. I also need to plant my sugar snap peas!
Our house is still a work in progress...I've been very slow/lazy at getting all the finishing touches done, so no before/after pics just yet.
I am doing the running portion of a triathlon in three weeks. I haven't run since the first weekend in May! I really need to get my butt in gear. I know it's only 3.1 miles, but I want to have a good time!
I hope everyone has a wonderful week!!
